26/11/7

Good morning

I still can't draw as well as I did when I was bullied as a kid, but I have the courage to post my bad drawings now.
I think I've gotten back some of the old feelings I had when drawing—like deleting pieces a few hours after posting them because I feel so embarrassed, and having the urge to fix them.

26/11/4

Nothing kills the human soul like being in the wrong place with the wrong people.

26/11/2

Had a bad flashback today, at my school's physical fitness test.

26/11/1

I like watching old Bilibili Minecraft videos (most are from 2013). I like that there's no feeling of being chased by something. Every line feels like listening to my best friend.

I loved those few MC uploaders when I was little. Now it feels like a distant home that's been gone for a very, very long time.

26/10/31

It's already November.

I don't really have the drive to do anything, I guess. My body hurts. The noise won't stop.

Every time those screaming noises, full of swearing and internet slang, start up, my heart races. It feels like falling from heaven into a hell thousands of miles down.